While lying face down on a massage table, eyes closed, music playing softly, in a dimly lit room I drifted away for a walk in the woods. My booted feet thumped along dark packed earth winding through cedar and fir trees; the smell of dirt, moss and sap heavy in the air. Occasional glimpses of blue sky through the canopy of branches above or a peak at the ocean below. The path I hiked in my mind this morning circumnavigates Portland island and it’s features shift from cedar plank boardwalks in cool damp wetlands, to windy driftwood strewn sandy beaches; along carved slabs of sandstone edged with arbutus trees and opening onto grassy fields that were once orchards a hundred years ago.
I don’t like to talk when I’m getting a massage. (Does anyone? ) It’s such an indulgence to have someone work on my back and neck for the sake of comfort and healing with no expectation of reciprocity, allowing my mind to wander to my happy places: beaches where I once pulled my boat up, sitting on a log sipping tea from my favorite thermos, listening to waves and watching birds; pondering walks in the woods and sometimes discovering inspiration for a painting . A good massage is the perfect time for inward reflection.
This morning I was pleasantly surprised to find a painting forming in my mind during my massage. It’s a very long time since my muse tried to get my attention. When the FedEx truck hit me I’m convinced that it knocked my muse into the gutter where it has remained for months. My recovery is now in it’s 15th month and while I think I’m almost back to normal I have yet to complete more than a single painting. Until today.
There are pivotal moments in everyone’s life that create a Before and an After. These are the moments that change the path you are on. Typically, these moments would include meeting the love of your life; having kids: moving to a new province or country. These events often include serious decisions, taking the left fork in the road instead of the right. And sometimes they involve having the decision forced upon you because the trail has been washed away. Other times the choice is so easy there isn’t any decision making involved: you step out of a cold muddy trail in the woods onto a warm sunny beach.
The most significant life-changing events in my life after 40 have included learning to kayak in 2002, becoming a nurse in 2009, becoming alcohol free and picking up a paintbrush in 2015 and my recovery after getting hit by a truck in 2023. My path has had some very interesting twists and turns with amazing companions.
That’s what I was thinking about while I was getting a massage today: A Walk in the Woods.